Four- faced Buddha - hopefully not my last prayer
by Sincere prayer
I used to be quite a successful professional working in an investment field and happily married. Things changed dramatically few years ago when I took on an overseas job and the financial crisis broke.
My firm went bankrupt and I lost my job. I started a company with my wife with my own capital but a husband and wife team proved to be a difficult task to handle. I suffered from a severe depression and went back to my home country for treatment while temporarily taking a break from my career.
Little did I knew that my wife squandered all the funds in the company (which constitutes the bulk of my life savings) and initiated a divorce with me.
I could not believe it. Being abandoned, betrayed and cheated by my loved one during my most difficult time. That has deepened my depression and I am still struggling to recover from it.
My health deteriorated since. My severe depression has also hindered my confidence and ability to take on a new job challenge and also handling work pressure.
I lost confidence in my life and thinking about resigning from this life. I contemplated suicide but I could not let go of my aging parents. On the other hand, I felt sad and depressed seeing them worrying about me/taking care of me when I should be taking care of them.
I prayed to the four-faced Buddha at the Erawan Shrine early this month, making a big wish in order to start a new life. I really hope that my prayer will be answered by him.
This is really the lowest point of my life... down in every aspect, career, relationship, wealth and health.